Project Life 2014 • 19-20

spread 19. i loved this spread. it is the first that has felt like my style in weeks + weeks.

 spread 20

project life is a product, system and a lifestyle created by becky higgins. in 2014, i’m creating spreads throughout the year. here are all of my pages from 2013 + 2014.


“A portrait of my child, once a week, every week in 2014”

i try so, so hard not to be one of those mothers who compare timelines to other children. DJ learned to crawl and walk quite quickly, had two teeth at 5 months (and ten now, at 13 months) and says mama, dada and kitty. but. but but but. i was wondering when the pointing was going to come in. waiting waiting wondering wondering. and this week, i caught his first point on camera. this. this is why i love having my camera handy.


i’ve always strived to be open, honest and real here in this space, and while that does often leave me feeling raw and vulnerable, i have found an awful lot of comfort in putting my thoughts out into the world and the response that i often receive when i do so. as such, i want to continue to only speak the truth, and not sugar coat my life in any way.
the truth is: as far back as i can remember, i have found it hard to maintain a solid level of happiness. i constantly ebb and flow. in fact, depression runs in my family – more specifically the women – and i have had a couple bouts in the past fifteen years.
when i am feeling unhappy, the first thing i often do is go out and buy some clothes, or new scrapbooking supplies, or something new for the house, thinking that i would feel better if only: i had nicer clothes, or a gorgeously decorated house. if only. if only. if only.
what i have come to realize lately is that everything i need to be a happier person is already inside of me. material possessions are not going to make a lick of a difference. in fact, once the shine factor wears off, i am left feeling guilty and stupid over spending the money in the first place.
everything that i need to be a happier person is already inside of me. i just have to find a way to bring it out. how do i do that? well, i think it begins with changing my attitude.
I’m always happy with what I’m doing, because I don’t compare it to anything else, and instead pay close attention to the activity itself. I’m always happy with whoever I’m with, because I learn to see the perfection in every person. I’m always happy with where I am, because there’s no place on Earth that’s not a miracle. 

life will suck if you are always wishing you are doing something else. life will rock if you realize you’re already doing the best thing ever. “ 

– zen habits

i am making a conscious effort to be more present in my daily activities, to see the beauty in cleaning the kitchen and emptying the dishwasher.
i’m finding a way to prioritize the things that truly bring me joy, like spending time outside with my son, reading and writing. 
i will begin writing a gratitude list each night before bed.
and instead of focusing on all the things that i want to change about myself, i’m going to begin focusing on the things about myself that i am happy with, because this unhappiness that i often feel begins and ends with me and my (often negative) attitudes towards myself and my life.
i’m ready to regain control of my life. 

everything that i need to be a happier person is already inside of me.



“A portrait of my child, once a week, every week in 2014”

there are moments that i will always, always remember. watching dj take part in his first easter egg hunt will certainly be one of them.

around here • april 2014

each time i complete a project life spread i think: i need to include more personal notes: what we’ve been doing, what we’re looking forward to, what we’ve been cooking or want to cook. movies we have seen or want to see. wouldn’t i be as interested in those details as i am in seeing photos of DJ playing outside, or how i rearranged the living room?
in an effort to push myself into including more of these personal details in my spreads, i’m starting here.
here’s what’s been going on around here.
around here i’ve feeling revived after some alone time at home while dj was with his grand parents. i stayed in my pajamas longer, drank fewer cups of coffee, worked on blog posts and look photographs. and, i slept. oh did i sleep.

around here dj is learning the word no, and is not liking it one bit.
around here my basil has sprouted, along with my tomato plant. i’ve never had much luck growing anything to fruition from seeds. this time around, i’m being much more diligent, so i’m hopeful.
around here i’m rediscovering how darn comfortable it is to wear gym clothes all day long. my normal clothes are going to take the backseat for a while, i think.
around here the hubby is hard at work, as per usual. he’s been working crazy hours between doing construction-type work with his dad and real estate. i don’t tell him enough how proud i am of him for working so hard while i stay home with dj.
around here the temperatures are ramping up. i think we’re in for a doozy of a summer here in las vegas.
around here i bit the bullet and purchased a new desk chair. as pretty as my accent chair is, it’s just not working for the hours that i spend at the desk anymore.
around here i’m falling more and more in love with the paris wife. i’ve never read anything like it. if i owned it, instead of borrowing it from the library, i would be underlining sentences and writing in the margins. there really are no words for how much i’m enjoying it.


“A portrait of my child, once a week, every week in 2014”

saturday morning dj woke up with the best bed head i’ve seen on him yet. he thought it was quite funny, too.

DJ’s nursery update

back in february i entered – and won! – a giveaway for triangle decals from the very lovely anne hill. for over a month, they sat on my desk, just waiting for me to find the time to put them up. thanks to a hubby who drove dj over to his parents yesterday morning while he worked, this mama had seven blissful hours to do what she wished.

here’s what that corner of the room looked like before. you can see it in more detail here.

as i stood in dj’s nursery, music blaring from my iphone in the bedroom next door, peeling and sticking the decals on his wall, i began to think: my little baby is already one (don’t get me started on that, because i could write a novel). at what point does his nursery become his room? because, my goodness, sometimes the things he does makes me think he’s a five year old already!

the decals couldn’t have been easier to put up. I’m talking peel and stick, that’s it. the hardest part was kicking myself for putting them up only an hour after painting my nails (helloooo index finger paint chips!) and when it comes time to take them down? just peel em off!

i’m loving the little kick that it has given DJ’s room. thanks again anne!